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| The Surprise! December 2009 |
Today, I found myself reminiscing about last Thanksgiving and spending time with Scott before he deployed. We went to Arkansas where I met his entire family, well immediate family. We had all of the kids with us except for one who could not make it. I think that was one of the best times watching all of the kids.
There is something about kids, that playful inquisitive nature it is contagious. I liked going on the small hikes and seeing the world through their eyes. I also enjoyed searching for the perfect branches to build a fort, and setting the “kids” table for meals, just being a part of a large family, it was the nicest feeling.
Also, when Scott is here I sleep soundly, something that escapes me when I am alone. I think I am in guard mode and wake to noises and never feel like I am getting a deep sleep. In fact, when I hugged Scott for the first time, what I felt was safety and a sense of being home. For me he has a calming presence and I really like that. I think most people have a sense of intimidation around him because of his height, yet I feel totally comfortable.
I started this blog when he left to document the deployment and the many stages of our relationship. Overall, my attitude is positive and brave. But, that does not mean that I don’t have times of weakness, sadness, and the aching feeling of missing someone. Yet, when Scott and I talk we think that the time away has developed parts of our relationship that would not have been the focus had we not been apart.
There are many pros and cons, and right now I am very thankful for the pros. I feel reassured and ready for the many adventures ahead. We are a team and it is an absolute blessing to be part of such a phenomenal team.
~Alie